Awwww, I'm so pleased you enjoyed it. Even though my primary goal in writing is to satisfy myself (yes, I am strange; why do you ask?), it makes me feel all warm and cuddly to know that others find something of value in it.

As for John's sense of loss, self-pity and conflict, I originally intended for the condition to be prolonged (and for John to be really, really pissed off), but I just couldn't write it, especially not after The Shrine. And I thought what would be the most devastating for John, personally, without diminishing Rodney's giant intellect. Having Rodney fall in love with him all over again ... well, that gem came to me in the middle of the night.
::blushes:: Oops, now I've told you my sekrit!

Warm and fuzzy hugs,
H.