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The "D" was obviously "Decision". Even if arrived at in the midst of pain. Huh - is that like grocery shopping while hungry?
At least my pain levels were slightly reduced. After waking up at 5:47 (and groaning), I managed to fall back to sleep despite pain nibbling at the edges of my torso, and didn't wake up until the far more civilized time of 8:18.
That didn't mean the pain was non-existent today. It still tried to take centre-stage. Sigh. So I used my usual distracting techniques. Watched (more like listened to) last night's The Rookie, and read, or spent time lying in bed arriving at the great decision. Which was??? I am retiring from the Anointers' and Servers' Ministry of which I've been a part for at least 25 years. I'm sad, but feel I have no choice but to face reality. The pressure of being on duty on top of the new pain and transportation woes was just too much. Now I'll have to send my resignation letter, which I'll try to do tomorrow.
Back to distractions in the evening with watching my judge and game shows as well as a very nuanced season finale of Murdoch Mysteries (in which the concept of not being the one to cast the first stone was examined, especially when condemning someone for being a "left footer" aka gay). There was also the depiction of enduring love within marriages (not only William and Julia but also the Inspector and Margaret).
I just wish I'd had sight today, because I did miss so many little details. Anyway, it's time for blessed pills and the hope for a decent night. ::crosses fingers::
At least my pain levels were slightly reduced. After waking up at 5:47 (and groaning), I managed to fall back to sleep despite pain nibbling at the edges of my torso, and didn't wake up until the far more civilized time of 8:18.
That didn't mean the pain was non-existent today. It still tried to take centre-stage. Sigh. So I used my usual distracting techniques. Watched (more like listened to) last night's The Rookie, and read, or spent time lying in bed arriving at the great decision. Which was??? I am retiring from the Anointers' and Servers' Ministry of which I've been a part for at least 25 years. I'm sad, but feel I have no choice but to face reality. The pressure of being on duty on top of the new pain and transportation woes was just too much. Now I'll have to send my resignation letter, which I'll try to do tomorrow.
Back to distractions in the evening with watching my judge and game shows as well as a very nuanced season finale of Murdoch Mysteries (in which the concept of not being the one to cast the first stone was examined, especially when condemning someone for being a "left footer" aka gay). There was also the depiction of enduring love within marriages (not only William and Julia but also the Inspector and Margaret).
I just wish I'd had sight today, because I did miss so many little details. Anyway, it's time for blessed pills and the hope for a decent night. ::crosses fingers::
