The good: sleeping all the way to 10:38.

The excellent: getting an eVite from Brian for a zoom get-together, set for 1:30. Eek. I had to hurry to get ready in time.

The excellent: finding out completely by accident - when I grabbed the iPad by the upper right corner = how and where certain control buttons were revealed.

Everything after that was a disaster as I headed to bed to try to sooth the pain. I also tried the long fanfic reading as a distraction and my usual TV shows. Now I'm just hanging on for midnight.
Even worse with temperature fluctuations. Last night, I was so cold, I was shivering and my teeth actually were chattering. It made no sense as I was cocooned in my woolen capelet.

Today I went through a feverish spell which was equally baffling, but I turned the heat off. To add to the yuckiness, I threw up. Sigh. So, it seems the only thing I can keep down is SuM's homemade shortbread. Luckily, my vision was excellent yesterday and decent today, as I've been engrossed in a multi-fandom crossover fic of over 100K words. Getting close to the end. And I had the company of my fave TV shows.

I was delighted to receive two pieces of mail: holiday cards from church-John (the first time he's done that) and one from my "Auntie Marilyn". I think it's wiser for me to thank them tomorrow - hoping I'm feeling better. ::crosses fingers:: Some solid sleep should help, too, as I've been up early reading, then sleeping for a couple of hours, then u[p again, yadda yadda.
Gee, it's a good thing I didn't wait until tomorrow morning. Yes, LoL. So, I'd woken up really early but convinced myself to just stay in bed. When I finally got up, I was mostly devoid of pain. Aha, the little piggies of the universe finally got their acts together and also delivered on crisp, colourful vision. Yay.

Still, I took it easy in the morning, reading "Albatross" until I'd finished it. Terry Fallis once again left me with a smile on my face. He just exudes sunshine. After that, I had the rest of Brian's cookies for brekkie. Then, I got to work. I ended up just decorating one tree with two sets of lights (one clear, one multicolour, a long roll of translucent holiday ribbon, as well as a few other colourful items around the base.

I was unable to put up the sequinned wall hanging because I couldn't find the special hanger; OTOH, I thought my golden sleight was lost/misplaced, yet it was right in one of the storage boxes. Naturally, I blame the cats! I filled the sleigh with pine cones and set it on the fireplace and also hung my stocking. I still have to add a decorative bejewelled ribbon to the dining table and then I'm calling it done. Decorating while blind is always a challenge and I'm definitely avoiding wearing myself out - for a change.

So I need to climb in the shower now and hydrate. Tired little piggy.
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( Dec. 23rd, 2020 11:05 pm)
It's not that I don't have the Christmas spirit; it's that any spirit is being crowded out by the grind of all-day pain. I kept reassuring myself that I would get to decorating - eventually - but I didn't begin to feel better until after 8. PM, that is. I'd already begun to conk out every few minutes while watching TV, so that was a good sign that the pain wasn't interfering with sleep. Nah, just the productive part of my life.

Naturally, there are repercussions. I was intending to watch tomorrow's service on YouTube and then join a bit of a holidayish party on Zomm afterwards. Ha! Fat chance, now. It's going to take all my energy just to send personal holiday messages to my friends. [Note: it's hard to write in a cheerful way when you're all hurty on the inside.]

Anyway, I'm returning to reading "Albatross". The author has just thrown in a bombshell and I want to know what happens next.
Well, I've been throwing many towels around for the last two days. At least, I did manage two almost decent sleeps. But, yesterday, I sat down to get a whole pile of paper ready for recycling. I was in my office chair, bending over the pile on the bed, fumbling blindly with the staple remover. And it seemed that the staples weren't standard, either. Sigh. So, not only an aching back, but also a couple of shredded nails.

More torso/gastric pain didn't help either. I think I'm going to have to stop getting my entrees at least and just stick to soups and desserts that don't disagree with me. I guess that'll be a conversation for next week. It's not a good time to be feeling sick when I eat.

At least I had some determined distractive TV that included a tiny shocker on Young Sheldon and two inventive epis of Dragons' Den. But my vision was crap all day yesterday, so I delayed watching ST:Disco until this morning where it did an excellent job against the pain. Then, tonight, there was MacGyver but there was too much shooting so I couldn't really tell what was going on. However, I had luscious, glorious vision All. Day. Long. Too bad I didn't have the patience to read my library book. Sigh again.

Anyway, it's almost time for pills and bed. Crossing my fingers for a good sleep.
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( Dec. 16th, 2020 11:33 pm)
Not just the mind, but also the vision. It's not fair that I'm getting a one-on/one-off sleep routine. Last night was definitely OFF, as I went to bed after midnight but was up at 3:39. The only good thing was excellent vision. I'd set the alarm for 9 - which was a cruel joke. So I read for a wee bit. We had blind book club this morning and spent the time discussing our first-ever play, Wilde's "The Importance of Being Earnest". Even for a short play, we could have devoted separate meetings to each of the three acts. The discussion was all over the map, as we brought our individual backgrounds (two Greek/Macedonian, two Chinese, one Filipina, one from ?/South American and me).

After that I dropped off into a nap. And that was the most engaged part of my day. I need bed. Stat. Even with the TV on, I can't distract the pain away. Sigh.
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( Dec. 14th, 2020 11:28 pm)
… doesn't deserve to have any ink spilled in description. But it was grotesque. And I've nodded off a couple times during the day in order to make up for missing sleep.

The only good thing was receiving a card from my sis RS. Alas, because of my incompetent vision today I couldn't tell what was on the cover or written inside. I'll try again.

As diversions from pain, there was reading fanfic and watching a touching epi of tonight's Bull. Really … awwwww. Right now, I'm fading fast so had better press Post.
Obviously, yesterday wasn't worth wasting any words on. If that weren't enough, searing pain woke me up around 4 and I was up for the rest of the night. Yes, I certainly AM cranky and grumpy! To make things worse, there was no N.C.I.S. because it's December and Rudolph just had to visit. Sigh.

Had some unscheduled conk-outs during the day, even when watching the news. Boo. I'm also peeved by unnecessary bureaucracy. I didn't realize my disabled parking permit had expired last September (eek!) so went on the provincial website to see what was required. If I'd actually received the renewal package, all I would have had to do was drop the signed form into the mailbox and - tada - all done. But, now, I have to d/l the form and supply copies of photo ID (which they already have on file, sheesh).

Anyway, I'm going to have some soothing rice and beans for a late dinner and then try to read more of my book. And hope for a much better night.
As did waking up at my more usual time of 9:50. Also, no pain, so the little piggies of the universe did a very good job.

I read a little, did a tiny bit of work for the blind group, had the luxury of a two-hour nap around 1, watched my usual TV shows and am about to cue Bull to play.

And that's a wrap.
So, going to bed after 1 wasn't unusual, but waking up somewhere between 7 and 8 definitely was. Luckily, I was NOT in pain. What a relief! Dawdled in bed, catching up on FB and also reading my latest Terry Fallis book before I finally got to brekkie and pillsies.

Also, finally, did some laundry - a pathetic paltry volume. Well, considering I'm not going outside for anything.... Then I watched the news and a fascinating bit of investigative journalism regarding the Polio epidemic of the 1950s. Whoa! I am so grateful to have missed that one. One of my acquaintances in the Polish community - a few years older - had it. I knew about the differences in legs, and need for braces, but I knew nothing about iron lungs or how you could have a really bad headache one day and be paralyzed the next. It was also heartening to hear how the government of the day didn't follow the U.S. example of suspending ALL vaccinations because of a "bad batch"; instead, the Canadians trusted the qualifications of an independent Canadian producer (long gone) and continued with the immunizations. And it was heartbreaking to see some of the people interviewed, including barely trained nurses becoming de facto mothers to very young children who lived in the special hospital wards.

Anyway, time for pills and chocolate (to lift my mood). And then bed.
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( Nov. 28th, 2020 11:50 pm)
It's usually the right one, so I guess the left one is trying to catch up. But it's a trivial pain which suits all the trivialities of my day.

I ate, watched TV, read fanfic, caught up on FB, huddled in bed for warmth and am about to have cherry cobbler for my midnight snack before swallowing my pills. Obviously, with all the eyeball exercise, I had a decent vision day. Hope it'll continue.

Okay, let's dig into that yummy dessert.
It's about that I enjoyed a day from start to finish, beginning with waking up at 9 to my new alarm ringtone (the original TOS Trek theme was a gentle attention grabber). Then I got my meals order in and got ready for monthly blind book club. Didn't have time to eat, so I just had my pills and some miniature chocolates.

Though I hadn't read the book (Tangled Vines), I enjoyed listening to my friends discussing it. After the meeting ended before noon, I was then free to have real food. The meal I chose was chicken rosé pasta. I don't know why, but I'm really sensitive to salt right now and that's how I reacted to the sauce. Sodium from the wine?

Took it easy in the afternoon. As I'd woken up with wonderful vision, I borrowed our book for December and also noticed my app was suggesting the latest book by Terry Fallis. So I borrowed it, too.

As it was no-new-TV Wednesday, I just watched my regular shows. Now I'm going to squeeze some more reading out of my visual acuity before heading to bed. So much joy from reading today!
A tale of two days.
Yesterday, I woke up at 9:11. Today, I managed to sleep all the way to 10:24.

Yesterday was a wasted day as far as my vision was concerned. Everything was leeched of colour and glaring so that, when I wanted to watch Battle of the Blades, I couldn't even see the skaters. That made me sad, because one of the pairs had the guy doing a death spiral - a lot harder for a guy to do because of the different centre of gravity, let along being kept in place by the strength of his female partner. But at least I got to hear the judges describe it and be impressed.

Today, I regained my colour perception, so was able to read - hey even fanfic is terrific after a rotten day of nothing.

But, right now, the pain is overwhelming me, so I'm going to stay up to see if watching SNL really live may alleviate some of it - along with the appropriate pills. ::crosses fingers::
Well, it was only one book and, technically, it was the morning, but the blind group's book club was exactly what the doctor ordered. Considering the chaos south of the border, the month's selection - "Up and Down" by Canadian Terry Fallis - really turned up the heat on stereotypical (definitely not nice) facets of some Americans.

Unfortunately, the analgesic benefits from the discussion wore off quickly and I was generally groaning for the rest of the day. The only good thing was that my sight lasted for most of the day. OTOH, if I'm in pain, I can't sit at the desk and do stuff. Sigh.

Managed to consume just the boring daily TV fare. Good thing there'll be something new tomorrow evening. And, now, it's time for me to hit the bottles … pill bottles, that is.
It's been a short day for me at least, as I stayed up reading until 3:15 and slept almost until noon. How can a day with so few hours hurt so, so much? Definitely not fair.

I also missed a phone call while sleeping from my co-leader Maria of the old blind group. But I called her in the evening, learning how things were going. Her new normal sounds horrible - so I shouldn't be complaining.

I was busy with blind group stuff constantly during the day. Ub between, I watched my usual TV. In upbeat Canadian news, a boy here has a genetic eye defect causing blindness, starting with not being able to see at night. He couldn't Bsee at night. so stars were pit/ Bit his parents took him to the States for advanced treatment. He can already see stars and street lamps. The cost was a million bucks, so now Canadian governments and docs will be having some interesting discussions. No kidding.

The rest of the evening was suffused by horrid, awful, not good pain. Sigh. So I'm counting own to midnight. At least I conked out promptly when I'd gone to bed.
Yes, I was extra lazy. After going to bed around 1:10, I still managed to get five hours of sleep, first opening my eyes at 6:15. Read FB on my phone for a couple of hours, trying to awaken my vision, but the trick didn't work this morning.

After juice and pills, I slithered back into my bed which felt like the comfiest cocoon EVER. I dozed on and off and finally got out of bed at 4, just in time for my next dose of pills. Watched familiar animation as well as last night's SNL where the bit of Biden as the fly was the best part. Otherwise, it was just staying wrapped up and warm.

The only sad bit was listening to the evening news that revealed all the soaring cases of Covid around the world. I'm really trying hard not to anticipate the worst, of populations reduced significantly. I already feel there have been psychological effects of people becoming more lawless, especially where it comes to drunk driving and speeding - as if these things were now … optional. My fears weren't exactly allayed when I briefly glanced at the story of the USDA approving the sales of diseased chicken meat. ::shudders::

Anyway, I'm going to stay up reading for a while, even if the vision is weak yellow against dark sage green. But the story is intriguing. And tomorrow I'll be talking about thankfulness, even in these times.
Ha! I wish.
Wednesday night (actually early Thursday morning) was torture for me after I'd gone to bed around 3:15 a.m. I'd had glorious vision, and ended up reading a really, really long fanfic. Took my pills at the usual time around midnight. So, they'd already worn off when I'd lain down. Cue wrenching pain. Yet, I was being - cautious - and didn't want to take another couple Robax. To my astonishment, I was able to fall into the perfect amnesiac sleep, waking up at 9:42 with only mild arthritis in my right hand.

The vision flickered on-and-off during the day, but returned strongly again in the evening. My reward for the pain? I watched a rerun of Young Sheldon and my usual TV. And stayed up reading until around 3:15 a.m. Woke up at 10. At least I didn't have to overpay for great vision All. Day. Long! I caught up on watching last night's animated Trek which I really liked (because it had the real Enterprise swooping in to save the day, accompanied by Next Gen music and appearances by Will and Deanna). I've figured out the best thing about this series is the characters talking about old epis and characters!

Because of my unusual vision, I did some housekeeping on the blind group's Contacts list (desperately needed) and now I'm reading again. Tried to get back into reading "Sapiens" but I'd lost the natural rhythm of the prose. Must keep at it.

Anyway, I'd better stop counting my chickens, but I'm enjoying the metaphorical clucking I'm hearing. Mind you, I haven't watched tonight's news yet and I think there's bad stuff about Covid in it. Uh-oh.
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( Oct. 7th, 2020 11:36 pm)
At least it began with another night of good sleep, with only slight twinges of pain - none of which had any relation to muscle lock. This is turning out to be a strange month.

Spent time on blind group correspondence, including answering a local university student talking about art therapy for blind children when our group's members are all adults? Uh-huh.

Interspersed my duty time with period of cocooning in my lovely bed, reading (with so-so vision), and watching TV. Didn't watch the debate, but read my friends' reactions on FB.

Right now, I'm feeling too lazy to heat up some soup, so I've just opened a new bag of baked organic seed crackers. And, speaking of organic, SuM surprised me with two luscious flavours of organic juice. Um, if I'd have known she was going shopping, I would have asked for some real food. But it was a nice gesture on her part.

Okay, it's munch and read time again.
Repeat for hours. So utterly frustrating. Despite my other computer woes, I had exquisite vision the later it got, so I stayed up reading until - eek - 3:19 a.m. Slept until past 10, so that was okay. The vision was still mostly with me during the early part of the day until it began to fade. Um, maybe I should have restarted my computer when I could actually see. Silly Blonde.

My body flirted with pain through the night. Nothing new there. So, once again, it was pills, bed rest, and watching TV. I know: b-o-r-I-n-g.

Anyway, it's almost time for pills with a bit of chocolate and juice. Tomorrow, I'll be counting coins for our blind group's collection drive. Not looking forward to the task.
K d;m't think I've ever been so glad to be old as this year. If I don't feel well - in a non-pathological way - I just go to bed and stay there. Today was a perfect day to follow that advice. I got tons of sleep, managed to calm my insides and enjoy the leftovers from Wednesday (the romaine was STILL crisp) and nibbled on granola bars in-between.

There was a promo on the evening news of the upcoming 55th season premiere this weekend of a wonderful investigative journalism program on Canadian TV. It's going to be about the hidden dangers of contracting Covid, how it lingers in the bloodstream and can then affect all the organs in the body. I shivered when the newscaster talked about brain fog. So, I'm definitely recording it.

I apparently must have missed this bit on the news (during an unscheduled nap), but the Blue Jays have made it into the playoffs. So I am happy. What makes me less happy is crappy vision today. I thought it was improving, but no luck. So I watched the animated Trek with almost no colour contrast. If it weren't for the blue character....

Another frustration was receiving an email from Brian with a PDF that I can't read at all. Sigh. I'll email him tomorrow. Right now, I want to read some fanfic and then take my pills abd go to bed. ::crosses fingers::
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