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( Dec. 23rd, 2020 11:05 pm)
It's not that I don't have the Christmas spirit; it's that any spirit is being crowded out by the grind of all-day pain. I kept reassuring myself that I would get to decorating - eventually - but I didn't begin to feel better until after 8. PM, that is. I'd already begun to conk out every few minutes while watching TV, so that was a good sign that the pain wasn't interfering with sleep. Nah, just the productive part of my life.

Naturally, there are repercussions. I was intending to watch tomorrow's service on YouTube and then join a bit of a holidayish party on Zomm afterwards. Ha! Fat chance, now. It's going to take all my energy just to send personal holiday messages to my friends. [Note: it's hard to write in a cheerful way when you're all hurty on the inside.]

Anyway, I'm returning to reading "Albatross". The author has just thrown in a bombshell and I want to know what happens next.
… don't stand a chance, withering under the glare of a body wracked in pain. Sigh.

At least I slept well, waking up at 9:30. But, as the hours slid by, the pain intensified, not releasing its hold on me until around 9. So the only chore I managed to do was clean the large mirror over the fireplace. Make that a chore-and-a-half as the sprayer attachment was broken.

I watched TV instead, watching last night's first-run SNL that was so-so, with the possible exception of the skit of Giuliani's fart (followed by the real thing). Oh, how the mighty have tumbled. And he's emulating his very good buddy by having contracted the virus. Talk about dedication. ::shudders:: Ugh.

One of the highlights of my day was having people commenting on FB that it was nice to have me drop in, including a former deacon who has not always been the most compassionate person. So I guess I'll call that a win.

If my body would like to be compassionate tomorrow, I would surely appreciate it. Sigh. Negotiating with a hostage-taker is a frustrating task. ::crosses fingers::
Let's begin with long and glorious. After nodding off to sleep at my usual 1-ishness, I was still asleep at 11:27 when S. nocked on my door, asking a favour. Oh, I needed that sleep so much.

After I finally got going, I busied myself with little things, such as hanging up a couple of dresses that were mixed in with coats on my rack. After that, I put away the rotating sets of summer bedding and retrieved the lovely, heavy red flannel set. I'll put it on tomorrow. I sent an email to the woman who'd sent me the card I got yesterday. I received an email from my sis RS this morning asking for my address, so I guess I'll be getting one from her, too.

The only thing I didn't get around to doing was emailing Brian to see if we could have some time on the phone tomorrow as he was busy baking today. There was a virtual Santa Claus parade filmed at Canada's Wonderland so I recorded it. Then I was frustrated trying to get on FB so I could click the link on the church's virtual concert. I couldn't get it on the desktop, the iPad was being impossible, so I watched the first few numbers on my phone - which does not have Smart Invert. Sigh. I'll try again tomorrow.

My vision improved a titch since yesterday. Today, I can see yellow font against a blurred dark sage background. Let's just say that watching the season premiere of MacGyver wasn't a very cohesive experience. Come on, body, you fought off most of the pain; now gimme some sight! I know, the little piggies of the universe will get right on it. /sarcasm.
So who was lost and found? None other than church-John who didn't reply to me until mid afternoon, saying he had to go home because he'd spilled coffee over a new shirt. Uh, c-J, are you SURE you're okay? Anyway, he kept ignoring my question about taking me to the drugstore, and was only mentioning the Costo purchases. So, finally, FINALLY, he said he'd be over at noon tomorrow. In the meantime, I'd already gotten dressed. Sigh. So that was the aggravation in my day.

But, then the pain came at me with a vengeance. So back to bed with me to watch TV. The only relief was spotting a memory from a year ago on FB that was picked up by a church friend missing the beautiful summaries I used to post every week. Ah, that was lovely to hear praise but, alas, I've retired from that self-imposed burden task. I'll have to thank him tomorrow. Now I'm waiting for the pills to kick in.
Because of computer woes, let's just pretend this is Sunday.

So, yeah, I set my alarm for 9:25 in order to plug in my iPad as it needed updating. Twelve hours later, it's still plugged in. So I didn't join the church meeting via Zoom at noon. Perhaps someone will fill me in. At least I found out about what's happening for Christmas Eve. It would have been the 31st year at RTH; instead, there'll be two evening services (the second live-streamed) happening from our own sanctuary. Big diff between a non-pandemic capacity of 2500 seats and the allowable limit of 150 twice

Returned to bed after juice, granola bar and pills and napped until around 1. I just felt so surrounded by fluffy comfort.So, bed and cartoons were the main attraction of my day. SuM visited for a bit and got acquainted with a couple of my shows. ::giggles:: I hope she recovers!
… though I'll never get over the consciousness-breaking feeling of extreme pain - even as sleep continues. Yes, yes, II already know I'm weird. Sigh.

I catered to my weirdness by indulging in my new animated shows and napping. I finally got around to putting our book club's books in order (pasting the pdf contents into an editing doc and discovered our leader had put the same book in two slots. As if I weren't having enough problems with my fluctuating blindness. So I sent him my list a few minutes ago.

Anyway, I think I'll return to fooling around on the computer. Am deciding whether to attend the church's annual business meeting on Zoom tomorrow at noon. I guess I should make a virtual … appearance. And that's all she wrote today.
Step 1: buy a bottle of raspberry vodka;
Step 2: buy a bottle of curacao;
Step 3: mix above with ??? juice, various berries, and crushed ice.

Repeat!

And then revel in a lack of pain, spasms, or inefficient eyesight.

If you haven't figured it out yet, I had a divine late afternoon lunch on my fave patio with church-John. It was very warm but breezy with lots of sun. Just a perfect day. Well, except for where they processed my debit card against someone else's lunch. Then they reversed the charge. As c-J was handling the card, they gave him a second bill. He started entering the numbers before realizing it wasn't our bill either. Can you see my eyebrows rising to the ceiling? Anyway, we finally got the correct bill and paid it. We also received a gift card (that was nice so we can use it next time) as well as the manager's business card. C-J also took the paper menu with him so he can convince Brent and John to dine there.

So, speaking about church, it turns out I didn't surprise him at all with the revelation I would not be returning to church. I'll send them some money before Christmas. C-J feels no compulsion to return either, but is sad to have lost a vital social connection. I'm foreseeing there won't be any Thanksgiving or Christmas Day dinners for people without family - for the first time in decades.

Anyway, when I got home, I discovered by accident after turning on the TV that my vision was so amazing, making it the perfect ending to my day. Not wanting to tempt fate, I just took my pills (after skipping my 4 PM dose). Here's hoping for more good sleep (after nearly 8 hours last night).
At least the day had begun well, considering I slept until shortly after 9. So, I waited and wondered whether the contractor would show up today. Hour after hour passed by, with no contact. So, I just decided to stay in bed and take my chances.

It was Anniversary Sunday; I'd intended to watch the church service on my iPad, but my sight was abysmal this morning. Naturally (/sarcasm), it's much improved now. I found out later who the award winners were, but only recognized a couple of names.

Only watched the news on TV. We'd had a stunning flash storm in the early afternoon. Luckily, we didn't lose power, but there were downed lines at the edge of Greektown not too far away. Exchanged texts with S, so I now know the contractor will be here tomorrow morning. I hope I don't lose water. ::crosses fingers::
Everything I'm posting I got from my fave TV news broadcast. I call it "Science, Shame, and Solicitude".

First the science. TO's Chief Medical Officer is a weekly guest on Wednesdays in the few minutes leading up to 6 PM. Today I was fascinated to hear her comparing PPE face shields to simple cloth masks. She said that masks are superior, I guess, because they hug the contours of the face, providing a more secure barrier.

Now, the shame. There was an idiot customer visiting (pay attention) a Chinese supermarket. Neither he nor his companion were wearing masks (something that became mandatory recently). When asked to comply, he rejected the science, then claimed allergies, then claimed asthma, finally flung racial slurs at the staff, telling them to go back to China! Gee, what a peach. He's already becoming very popular on YouTube.

I'll end with more optimistic news. Parts of the city experienced flash flooding this afternoon. In one location, an older man was caught in his card. People observed him appearing to panic. A few waded into the street to assist. As one helped him squeeze through the window, another bent down to offer his back(!) as a step down. There were other examples of people coming to the aid of strangers.

As it just happens, this was the 7th anniversary of severe flash flooding; I still remember (when I lived by the lake) how long it took for me to get to church that morning. I think it was two hours!

Anyway, that's a snippet of local news. I'm off to bed. I can't wait for my excursion tomorrow. Yay.
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( Jun. 28th, 2020 11:19 pm)
More like grumpy electrical emergency that began with a 3 minute power loss in the middle of the night and culminated in the frying of one of my power bars, necessitating an appliance move in order to get at the wall outlet. Which, of course, is so much fun to do when the temperature an humidity are at a sweltering level. While I was moving the fridges, I tried to see if I could distinguish my missing rings. No such luck because I had blurry vision for most of the day.

That's why I couldn't find the special church service, even though I'd woken up to the alarm at 9:20. So I went to bed and napped. I hope I can access it in a couple of days. When I woke up, I read (and finished) my latest book despite the fact that everything was blurry, but I was desperate for entertainment on a hot Sunday.

The electrical stuff isn't ideal, as I believe something is jammed on the floor, but I haz no sight to play detective. Sigh. Anyway, I'm getting my reward in a few minutes when Peppa Pig will be on TV. Yay.
Straight from the PM's mouth during the noon press conference: Canada has 10% of the population of the U.S. but our total of tests is higher! That doesn't mean that we've been such eager beavers as he declared that we can do better, we must do better. But … wow! What a way to shed a bilious glare on the disunited states.

In other non-news, I conked out for naps several times, watched TV, and screamed silently in pain. I also received Easter wishes from my chosen sis RS who said she'd be watching the church service online. Well, she's ahead of me on that count, as I haven't had any church for 6 weeks. I'm just not in the mood. Sigh.
Just one of the weird things happening today. The worst was going to bed after 3 with my torso tied up in knots. Don't ask me how I slept: it was a miracle.

The pain would only abate for about 30 minutes each time I took Robax, so I had a lot of misery during the day. I tried to read, then watched a repeat epi of Bull and found that the distraction was finally beginning to help the pain leech out of my body. As some point, I heard my message/text ringtone. I picked up the phone and saw a message highlighted (large text) from the worship logistics leader. I pressed what I thought was the PLAY message button but the phone rang instead and she answered it! But that wasn't the weirdest thing; the message had been left on March 7!!! Anyway, we had a lovely chat except for the phone interjecting "lost signal" every couple of minutes, 'cuz it was 8 p.m., probably the peak calling time.

After that, I watched tonight's violent N.C.I.S. where Kasie and Jimmy were featured. Anyway, tonight's Covid-19 news is that Toronto just cancelled the {rode {arade at the end of June, though apparently there will be Pride "events". I guess I'll just wait and see along ith the rest of us here.
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( Mar. 25th, 2020 11:56 pm)
What a jolt, going from someone who'd given up on watching the evening news to watching faithfully every night, at least the first 30-40 minutes covering the pandemic. I'm obviously really interested in learning the where and what. And I continue to rely on Slog for my intake of American-based news. Breaking: Tweedledee Trump has found his Tweedledum in the Prez of Peru whose massive ego and fitness levels will save him from the virus. ::rolls eyes:: Suuuuuuure.

In better news, after brekkie, I worked on a reply to the sweet phone call message I'd received from Rev. Deana yesterday. I told her I was okay, the healthiest(!) person in the house, busy with blind group, and otherwise hanging in. And, speaking of blind group, how does OOPS sound? Yup, I forgot all about a mini Zoom call for 2 p.m. Luckily, the Prez has emailed the wrong ID, so he phoned me at 2:05. We were done well before 3; will reconvene next week, same bat time, same bat channel.

As my sight was lousy today, no books were read. And no new TV shows watched except for the standard judge and game shows. And, as always, lots of Peppa Pig. I was heartened to see that the children's network did a PSA with one of their "personalities" along with her animated bear (think of the Snuggle commercial) where they told little kids why they couldn't go outside to play with their friends.

As SuM was going to the supermarket, she bought me three juices (can't see what flavours) and a bag of mandarins. Hey, at least I'm getting my vitamins.

Anyway, that's another day down the drain. I'm going to see who's emailed me and see if I have to reply. And that's a wrap.
ETA
I definitely am lucky, as I mentioned to Rev. Deana. Getting my weekly meals delivered hasn't been changed, even though the office staff are working from home and only half the number of volunteers are. OTOH, I believe the admin. is being run off her feet, and she hasn't even recovered from her pelvis-crushing car accident from last year.
So, I was surprised and delighted to receive an IM from Rev. Jeff last night. He was worried about me and wondering how I'm doing in this period of isolation. Well, after I replied that my respiratory health was excellent and that - for me - isolation is semi-normal and that I was being kept busy by being in virtual touch with my blind group. So I'm okay. Still, it was ever so sweet.

As I had exquisite vision last night, I stayed up reading until 3:30 a.m. Eek! And then I slept hard until nearly 10. I finally tucked into the jam Brian gave me in December and, with the seed crackers, I demolished the tiny jar. Good thing I have four more jars. So I had l'il Giggly Ballerina Piggly send him a thank-you email. Yes, I am silly.

Pain flirted with me during the day and I tried to ignore it. Unfortunately, my vision is dismal today. I contributed to Savage Love. I actually watched the beginning of tonight's news accidentally while checking on my recordings. I was really happy to learn that emergency legislation had been passed to disregard a local noise bylaw, so that trucks could make deliveries all night long to supermarkets, allowed the shelves to be restocked. Let's hope it eases the anxiety of seeing empty shelves. I raided the pantry and fridge for supper: black Cali olives and applewood smoked cheddar cheese were fun to eat.

Anyway, I think I'm going to watch Will&Grace now. I've already watched my regular judge shows. And that's all she wrote today.
Sigh. That's not a good sign. Also not a good sign was the onset of spasms in the middle of the night, prompting me to gulp down a couple more Robax. They did the trick and I slept hard until the alarm woke me up at 9:25.

After brekkie, I tried various ways to access the mini-webcast, but gave up in frustrated blindness. I'll try again during the week when I have better sight. Instead I alternated between reading a book and lying in bed with pain (sigh, again). I also sent out a cancellation notice for the blind group. We've cancelled a lot of events for the next few weeks. Definitely not fun.

There was nothing to watch on TV. Last night's SNL was a repeat so I switched to the French music channel. I was enchanted to hear the Papageno aria and Papageno's and Papagena's charming duet from "The Magic Flute" sung in German. I'd hoped they were playing the entire opera, but it was a mixed bag, with "As Time Goes By" on classical guitar inserted between a couple of Mozart's Piano Concerti.

Didn't have much to eat today, so dinner was yesterday's cornbread heated up in the microwave then slathered in soft butter. And a Coke. Wow, such a feast. /sarcasm. I'm also considering ordering groceries to be delivered this week. I think that they are taking steps to prevent shortages. In any cases, I just need basics like organic juices ... and ice cream! Okay, back to beautiful music!

ETA: One sweet note on FB regarding church: two of my friends - a mom and her grown-up son who was one of my fave deacons - watched the service online together.
Oy. And now I get to describe it - after my computer froze and it's now the next day. But, if you stare into my eyes, I'll make you believe it's still Saturday. LoL.

I was so happy to get out of the house, even wearing my Mary Janes and spring coat. Yay. I arrived at Montana's early (12:45), so texted Brian, and waited. It didn't take him too long to drive over. We quickly ordered dwinkies. Mine was bourbon with frozen raspberry purée. It was yummy, so I had another one! I was ravenous so ordered the large rack of ribs that were perfectly cooked. I also had the skillet of sizzling 'shrooms. I ended up bringing the sweet potato fries, sauce, coleslaw, and cornbread home. I even decided against dessert.

We talked about so many things and, if I keep my fingers crossed, he might join me on a special trip next year. Hmmmm. Now there are more possibilities in my future. We played with my iPad. We began to pack up early, with me taking the goodies he'd brought me: the printer ink cartridges, a big box of my fave crackers, and four more pretty jars of his amazing jam!

My driver arrived early (3:50) and we were merrily on our way. He was a real card, expressed amazement that "I" was a Senior and said that Brian and I looked to be of similar ages. We talked about everything. When I got home, I sent Brian a whole bunch of forgotten points. And then I read my emails. I had one from my Week 3 team leader, apologizing for not responding sooner to my retirement letter. I also had another one from the worship coordinator. But the most stunning email was from Rev. Jeff, announcing that all services would be cancelled on Sunday. However, he would be using the webcast facilities to give his Lesson.

After that, I took advantage of improved bright sight and watched last night's MacGyver. And, unfortunately, I'm back in back-spasm land. The two drinks had offered me a tasty reprieve, but now I've gulped down my Robax. ::crosses fingers::
Let's weigh the results: So, S. said she couldn't find "Nemesis" in the library, but I did. So, she has to put a hold on it and I'll eventually be able to watch the movie. OTOH, my editing pals and I got our fingers on this week's publication. Page one was all about staying safe at church. Um ... I didn't catch the unnecessary possessive in the Vulcan greeting. I must have been very tired. Sigh. But I had slept in until 8:02.

With my thankfully improved vision, I was able to read a lot today, so I'm less grumpy, Still haven't looked up train travel OR decided whether I'm going to church this Sunday the rest of the month. Yeah, I'm conflicted. So I just vegged and watched my usual shows. Okay, back to reading my mystery.
I woke up at 5:33 a.m. Normally, that would put me in a mega grumpy mood. But, to the contrary, I've been beaming all day long, because I've had lovely crisp vision All. Day. Long! It's amazing to see how much of a difference it makes in the way I function and experience life around me.

I read, fielded several phone calls, did blind group stuff, and watched TV (including a zany The Rookie and a heartbreaking (but ultimately healing) Bull.

I'm also feeling more empowered. I checked out the average cost of a cab for Sundays and have decided I still want to be frugal and not resentful. So I'm going to keep my rides TO church, but return home by cab. It also means I can join my friends for brunch from time to time - aka have actual social interactions. So, yay me.

I also updated my iPad and played around with it. Alas, depending on whether I'm in Smart Invert or Classic Invert, some things work and others don't. Huh - it the device treating my library eBooks as a photograph in Smart? But I'm feeling more confident and adaptable today, so I'll deal.

Tomorrow I plan to research train travel with my walker. And, yes, the miracle today wasn't just the vision, it was the profound ABSENCE of pain!!!!! ::tosses imaginary beret in the air::
Oh, it was definitely a nice way to begin my day. However, as my vision was worse than yesterday, I decided not even to try watching the church service. Ha! I must have been prescient because church-John emailed me that, when he arrived at church, there were no lights or heat, there were two men sitting in HIS pew; then, when the service went on, no projector or microphones. He even ended up serving Communion (even though he's never been trained). Wow, just wow.

In light of my cancellation and continuing woes with my rides provider, I came to the reluctant conclusion that I'm actually going to have to pay for efficiency and reduced anxiety. So, for the foreseeable future (at least until summer), I will be booking cabs to attend church. To me it seems totally ridiculous but I can't subject myself to being away from home for nearly SIX hours! Just unacceptable.

Anyway, with my lousy vision, I only watched last night's SNL which featured Elizabeth Warren as the surprise guest (chumming it up with Kate McKinnon as EW). Unfortunately, I couldn't read, especially not on my iPad, because that wascawy baby bro changed some of my colour settings. I can't see the keyboard and I definitely can't add a book from the library. Groan. So I did a load of laundry instead.

Amuway, now that Brian has me all fired up (he has that effect on me), I have to check out how this old lady can take that train trip to Northern Ontario. And, more locally, book a cab company online.
It must have been invisible until now. I decided to remove the broken automatic on/off cord and replace with a good one. When I went to unplug the broken one, I found the sleigh tangled up in the cord. I blame a poltergeist because it was so not there before. And that still doesn't solve where the sleigh had been hiding since Christmas 2018. Oh, well, at least I found it.

What I didn't find was decent sleep. I woke up at 5:59 but managed to drowse a bit. My pill-taking has been all over the map. I was distracted while doing my church editing (that didn't arrive in my Inbox until 7:25 p.m.), so now my muscles as shrieking!!! but I won't take my dose until bedtime. Sigh.

Still didn't send my email to the church, but I've been working on the wording. So, perhaps tomorrow. And more putting things away to prepare for Brian's visit.

As it was humpday, there was nothing decent on TV, just the game and judge shows. And that's my simple story for today.
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