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helenkacan Aug. 29th, 2012 10:48 pm)
helenkacan Aug. 29th, 2012 10:48 pm)I guess it didn't help that I stayed up until - ACK - 4:00 a.m. Yes, I was reading and enjoying myself, but it's really hard to fall asleep after the hump of the middle of the night. To make things worse, I had to set the alarm because of my meal delivery (which was a titch early).
I was so zonked, I needed a one-hour lie-down in the early afternoon. So, yes, I'm feeling weak and hurt and disheartened and too out of it to make that stupid appointment with the GP to get the results on my foot (also not wanting to travel all the way downtown). Do you see the circle I'm trapped in? Yeah, I knew that you would. I'm even not feeling like seeing Brian on a weekly basis which is a HUGE WHOA all on its own (although there are extenuating reasons). Well, it's a good thing we'll be together tomorrow evening. And, speaking of the dear boy, I had to text him URGENTLY because I didn't know how to get out of my browser on my phone. ::rolls eyes:: His suggestion didn't help, so I did the "How do I...?" on Google and found the answer myself. I swear, I think that's the neatest thing, connecting people with questions to those who can provide answers. I also managed to watch a couple of S3 epis of Glee, the Whitney tribute and "Choke".
So ... why the icon? Well, in the movie The Turning Point, Emilia finds Yuri (her lover, played by Baryshnikov) making out with another ballerina. She's so hurt, she goes to a bar where she meets two good old boys and proceeds to get drunk, even though she's performing that evening. So, I'm pretending to be drunk and have just slid down the elevator wall to the floor, grinning and saying "Hi". Hey, at least I'm laughing at myself, sorta, kinda. and I'm drinking flavoured water.
Okay, enough tiptoeing around, I'm headed off to bed. Really. Wow! I think I've just surprised myself.
I was so zonked, I needed a one-hour lie-down in the early afternoon. So, yes, I'm feeling weak and hurt and disheartened and too out of it to make that stupid appointment with the GP to get the results on my foot (also not wanting to travel all the way downtown). Do you see the circle I'm trapped in? Yeah, I knew that you would. I'm even not feeling like seeing Brian on a weekly basis which is a HUGE WHOA all on its own (although there are extenuating reasons). Well, it's a good thing we'll be together tomorrow evening. And, speaking of the dear boy, I had to text him URGENTLY because I didn't know how to get out of my browser on my phone. ::rolls eyes:: His suggestion didn't help, so I did the "How do I...?" on Google and found the answer myself. I swear, I think that's the neatest thing, connecting people with questions to those who can provide answers. I also managed to watch a couple of S3 epis of Glee, the Whitney tribute and "Choke".
So ... why the icon? Well, in the movie The Turning Point, Emilia finds Yuri (her lover, played by Baryshnikov) making out with another ballerina. She's so hurt, she goes to a bar where she meets two good old boys and proceeds to get drunk, even though she's performing that evening. So, I'm pretending to be drunk and have just slid down the elevator wall to the floor, grinning and saying "Hi". Hey, at least I'm laughing at myself, sorta, kinda. and I'm drinking flavoured water.
Okay, enough tiptoeing around, I'm headed off to bed. Really. Wow! I think I've just surprised myself.
